Jacky Ralph Amos

       My thoughts and prayers are with you today on Jacky's first Angel Anniversary.

                                           Wishing you a gentle day filled with beautiful memories of Jacky.

Janice~ My prayers, and my love is with you and your family today as the day has come to mark the 1 year anniversary since Jacky went to Heaven. Be strong! You are also a warrior! I am here if you need to vent! I know your pain, as I also am getting ready to face the same!

Love and Hugs,

Vivian 

Janice~ Hi! How are you and your family doing? You are in my thoughts and prayers daily! 

All that could go wrong has gone wrong! I am currently sitting at home.....guess you could say thanks to our economy I lost my job. I really have not looked for a job. I am taking the month of October to find my way out of this emotional wreck that I have been in for the last year. I figured it was time to.

When I lost my job on Sept 3, 2008, the reality of Luis' death finally hit me and the first few weeks after were torchure. BUT GOD lead me through and I finally have found the peace that I have been searching for, for so long!  In Gods time, just like we talked about. Now don't get me wrong, I still have days that I cry, but I am over the part of the questions of WHY GOD?..!! I know that God needed him there and that his time and purpose had been fullfilled on earth. That we will be together again soon. Luis is no longer in pain! He is in his new body standing beside Jesus. I miss Luis like crazy, but I would rather he be with GOD than here on earth with pain and suffering.

How is your dad doing Janice? How are you holding up? My prayers are with you in your time of need in taking care of your dad.

As the 1 year anniversaries  approach,  for both Jacky and Luis, I look back over this past year at all that I have encountered and faced! From times of laughter to sorrow to completely falling to my knees hardly unable to control this hurt inside. I want to say THANK YOU JANICE!

I do not think you understand just exactly how GOD blessed me with your friendship.......As you can tell from Luis' page, Me and you are about the only ones who really visit. And as we have talked about, Luis was all I had! The first time you wrote me, I was at my lowest, deepest, and darkest moment! I was ready to give up on life and end it all. I was 100% completely ALONE ( so I thought)! I had made a decision to end my life! To give up! That I could not face all this loneliness, hurt, and suffering for one more night. Then, that is when I received your letter on Luis' page !Truthfully, I was in shock, that after so much I had went through, that when I was ready to throw in the towel, GOD sent me my personal ANGEL! That was YOU JANICE!!! You shared with me your wisdom and I was able to see that you also was going through your own personal lose! That you truely knew the hurt and you came out of love. Not because you had a duty, but because you truely cared! YOU Janice, yes YOU, just you! I can actually say that you saved my life that night! Just knowing that you actually listened to me and really read and responded. You, a total stranger cared enough to take the time to listen to me when I needed someone the most!

We need more people in this world that are just like you Janice ! You are a GOD send! The world needs to see that yes it is true that 1 person can make a difference! It just takes someone that is compassionate and caring!

EVERYDAY I THANK GOD FOR SENDING YOU TO LUIS PAGE! THAT I TURELY HAVE A FRIEND IN YOU JANICE FOR TAKING YOUR TIME TO REACH OUT TO ME WHEN I NEEDED A FRIEND THE MOST!

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers daily!  God Bless you and take care!

Love,

Vivian 

         i am glad you got food down him and at this point drinking is not going to hurt i agree give him what he wants i am september 2 angela is june 22nd makayla is march 5th micah auqust 30th baby DE'october 4th and disney was the day we use to say mickey everything i am packing up   micah's room this week it has sat there long enough baby DE' can us all the things in the room and it is selfish for me to keep it here i tried last night could'nt make it through the door will try again today it will break angel's heart to get it all but breaks her heart not to have it no easy way to handle this and i am glad to hear jacky liked disney to haveing a young heart is what our angel's need i am praying hard to day got to interviews and

       Micah has not let me sleep this last week at all must be trying to let me know something i will nottttttttttttt misssssssssss 2oo8 at all it has been a strom blown through that has put 20 years on me gotta go to teary this morning can't stop the tears this last few days normally not to bad but this is just a river will i'll jump in the shower get read of this frog and start this day so it can end quickly  my love my thoughts go with you in your struggle and journey with your dad i know first hand all to will the roller coaster you are on with this emotions take us over sometimes but god will take control i am so glad i have you   your friend for life NaNa

        dying is hard and they say people just get mean and bossie because they have no control over the real thing that is going to happen it's not like saying no i do not want to go they are bathed and feed when someone else decides to do it, can't wipe their own butt anymore and yes the closest most loved seems to get the most abuse and feels the worst because god has given you so much to bare but not more than you can handle right you are strong christian strength is amazing it will get you thrugh more than you know can you imagine being a non believer and going through this mama my thoughts of you and your family have been strong and what you are going through i watch everyday at a hospital were people are in so much pain and have such wounds that i can't believe they made it this far and linger on for month's everyone needs to pray for a fast end

           Micah's brother baby DE' was 2 on the 4th i was not allowed to attend the party broke my heart but i'm okay this has been a year of pain quiting my job todat i do not now were i will go probanly another nursing job but one that no one knows about any of my tradgedy this year people tend to be cruell you would think a bunch of nurse how much more understanding can you get [ believe me not true nurses have a shell of steal they are hard as nails and compassion is out the window

          i will just keep going i do not envy you your pain it is hard pray hard and GOD will step in you are the one that taught me that janice i do not even want to leave my house and the hate i feel for Angela's stepmother is so over powering and i just keep asking our lord to take all of my bad feelings away but i wake up the same everyday feeling the same

 mama you take him home if you want with hospice or with home health but you will have to split shifts with family 24 hour private duty will be exspensive and it does not sound terrible we all have to die and we all have to still live once they are gone try to make sure everything else s in order just be a good and honest person do what your heart tells you to do with love without malice and the lord will be your guide as always he will be at your side people have to die and live in god,s order this should tell you have your things together so your family never has to make the hard choice you will have made it for them i have my DNR in place and i will be cremated angela the same with Micah's head stone lifted and her placed under it the same as i no fuss little exspense just gone you will pray you will be strong you will prevail in the eyes of your lord honor thy father now you need to honor both I PRAY FOR YOU MY FRIEND