Jacky Ralph Amos

i use to carry this big old world

on my shoulders and back

i use to lie in my room

wondering where im at

i felt a chill running through my veins

and wondered, would i be saved?

i felt the ice building in my sould

would it melt away?

He's the warm breeze

breathing life into me

He's the sunlight

shinning down on me

i use to worry my life away

counting every dime

shutting out the ones i love

never finding time

and oneday i was overcome

by loneliness and dispair

and deep inside i thought i heard

"Lean on me, I'm here."

He's the warm breeze

breathing life into me

He's the sunlight

shinning down on me

i pulled the burden off my back

and tossed it into the wind

and stretched my arms out towards the sky

and let my life begin

and like a tree, ive measured up

best when ive been cut down

and like a tree, i can touch the sky

with my feet on the ground

He's the warm breeze

breathing life into me

He's the sunlight

shinning down on me 

 

 

 

 

 

 

take the light, undarken everything around me

call the clowns and listen closely, i'm lost without you

call your name everyday when i feel so helpless

i'm fallin' down but i'll rise above this, rise above this

hate the mind, regrets are better left unspoken

for all we know this voids will grow and

everything's in vain, distressing you though it leaves me open

feel's so right, but i'll end this before it gets me

call your name everyday when i feel so helpless

i'm fallin' down, but i'll rise above this, rise above this

call your name everyday, when i feel so helpless

i'm fallin' down, but i'll rise above this, rise above this doubt

i'll mend myself before it gets me

call your name everyday, when i feel so helpless

i'm fallin' down, but i'll rise above this, rise above this

call your name everyday, when i seem so helpless

i'm fallin' down,  but i'll rise above this, rise above this

forty eight ways to say that i'mm feelin' helpless

fallin' down, fallin' down, but i'll rise above this, rise above this

 

     Jacky  =]

i know you're much happier. you were the best brother anyone could ask for.

i just wanted to say thanx  :]

thanx for listening, for comforting

it means a lot

-------------------------->tracey

 

 

 

 

liquidate everything if he owns his home it needs to be in your name or somone else's clear all bank accounts out leaving nothing in them check on life insurance plan they can hold it against him if there is cash value you can have up to 5000.00 in bank for his funeral only if there is a car get rid of it or transfer title for a one time gift to some one else if there is much you can lose it all or get all your paper work on him everything he has or owns get medical and financial power of attorney right away then see a lawyer 1x and lay it all out get on it fast or it will be to late do not sign actual guarantee of payment do not make your self the payee or they can sue you janice these things are so important they can really cause you a lot of trouble i know people that are almost homeless trying to do this with out getting it together right it may cost a few hundred dollars for an attorney but it can cost you everything with out one in your dads case he may or may not be ready to go but pumping blood in him waiting for the next amputation these are things you and he have to decide how long to prolong life will it be a good one for him will he be happy with the guality of life you will be giving him or is it better to give him medication for his comfort and antibiotics and let the LORD step in these are things you your dad and the lord need to decide i know with your faith you will make all the right choices and yes it is hard and will break your heart but what ever your decision if done with love and in God's eye''s you will make it letting nature take over is not always bad i do not know your dads condition you have to ask the doctor's what he is looking forward to as far as guality of life and all that means love always i will pray for you make sure people answer you

you need to cry,yell,scream sing what ever it takes do what is needed to release your pain do not hold it in it will cause you long term damage Moma will hold you and understand she will be there for you always when i lost Micah i did not think i would survive but not for Jacky,s mom i would have gone crazy i believe i would have ended my life i still hurt so bad it simply feels like i can,t go on but i do everyday with tears in my throat and a knife in my heart but Makayla my 9 year old needs me today and everyday and i would never cause my family that kind of pain intentionally GOD will guide you that also came from Jacky's mom she showed me how to use god for answers or at least comfort i believe i will always hurt i will forever be in pain but i will survive because of Micah tracey let the LORD guide you and your family love you and you will be able to go on i didn't say you would be okay i said you will make it Jacky's mom has been my rock from almost day one let her be yours talk to Jacky i talk to Micah on a daily somtimes almost all day when i read what you wrote i felt your pain i am so sorry for all of us that have lost a love one and when the death is out of order it is harder love to you Micah's nana

jacky,

       i miss you sooo much. im pretty sure everyone else does. there is not a day that passes by that i dont think of you. 9 and 1/2 months------>wow that seems like forever. 9 months since ive seen your face. 9 months since ive hugged you. 9 months since we've talked. 9 months since i really fell apart, broke down and hit the floor crying. it has gotten better but it also has gotten harder, having to deal each day without you. you made life easy for me, taking me to races, you gave me my first dip lol and my last, monster truck shows, wow blaring ac/dc speeding on he highway, jetski riding, camping ahh and the list could go on for miles. the next day afte you died was the first day that i looked out of my window and looked out at the sky and thought it always looked brighter, maybe it was because you're up there now. its hard, it really is. when supper time comes around you would usually come in, but now all i can do is brace myself and put on a happy face. but you know what? im sick of holding back

im sick of feeling like i have to hide what i feel so i dont let moma see me. i cant do it anymore! i

just cant, i dont care who sees me this time. oneday im just gona break. everynight i thank God for

what i have. i thank God that im stiil alive, for the people around me are still alive. atleast once a day

i take a ride in your truck, and atleast that once a day moment i feel warmth and comfort like youre

riding with me. its a great feeling. i remember oneday you flexed your muscles and i said wow i

want to be just like you you when i grow up. and i do, to me you were the smartest man i knew. i heard a song today and it reminded me of you. i cried, yeah, i cried hard. and it felt good. i talked to you too, i know you can hear me. i know that you Are here with me everyday helping me. i love you jacky. i love you more than anyone could/can ever love you! 

jacky,

 

Hi Janice~

 

How is everything with you? You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday, and I hope things are going better for you and your family. It saddens me to hear that you are havng so much sickness in your family. I pray that GOD heals them and gives you the strength you need, emotionally and physically. It is so hard sometimes to deal with. When you feel as if there is nothing you can do. It is so hard to sit back and watch someone you love be in so much pain and to suffer.

I will be praying that things get better and that GOD puts his hands over your family to protect each and everyone of you. To give you a break for all that you all have been through, and give your hearts some time to mend!!

 

As for me, I have fallen in a sleeping rut, but I hope to pull out of it soon. I get home from work and all I want to do is lay down and sleep. I get up cook supper and then back off to bed, just to wake in the morning feeling as if I have not slept at all!

 

Always in my thoughts and prayer!

 

Love ya,

 

Vivian

okay how is your dad haven't heard from you lately hope and pray for your day everyday as i pray for mine god has been kind to me lately so i am better everyday miss are boys always love to your family

I went to a friend's brother's memorial service saturday I did'nt know him but I have seen him before he was cremated that's why he just had a memorial service and I almost lost control when they played Amazing Grace because that was one of your songs but your's was by Elvis and held myself together because I didn't want this people to think why am I sobbing over a stranger I did'nt know but I was fighting the tears in your memory. love you and miss you watch over all of the family and keep holding your mama high .