When I think about what I want out of life, I think about the times I had with you. Those were the happiest times of my life. Maybe because of the whole first love thing or the innocense that comes with being young. I always think that whatever I do in life, I want to get that sort of happiness again. I want to feel that again, and I wonder if it is possible. I can't help but to think that a lot of it is a one time thing. Then comes grown up love that just doesn't seem as pure or unconditional. I just wish I would have treasured that young love as much as I could have and as long as I could have while I was living in it. I wish I could hit rewind all the time. If I could just live in it for a minute. It's so confusing now. It's hard to trust love now because it is so flimsy, and there's so many strings attached. I miss it being simple. I miss butterflies. I miss spending hours just talking and holding hands. I miss trusting. I miss cute things like your dancing in the rain or swinging at the school or walking the tracks at the parks holding hands. Those were the happiest times in my life. Maybe it was just part of being young, but those memories are my most cherished. They're irreplaceable. Sometimes I swear I think that if I get lost in them enough, that I can travel through time. When reality sets in, I think about heaven. I think that simple and pure love wait for me again with the Father and Son. It makes me long to be there, and be as good as I can here so that I will get there. In essence, you're making me a better person. The only love that I could imagine that could compare to that in which I feel and felt for you has to be supernatural.
