Jacky Ralph Amos

Thanksgiving was good, and so was the next day, Nuke Day, filled with recants and laughter and memories more in the making.  Roy Lee loaded down two plates just like you always did, and probably can almost match you at how much you could put away.  We really cracked laffter about the stuffed eggs, one of your favorites.  Autumn stuffed eighty, and we wondered what was wrong with that girl since you're not here to eat them!!!  But all's well that ends well, and they did all manage to get eaten, except for the few left that I made egg salad with.  Nothing wasted.  Waste not, want not.

I went and bought you another tree that we will plant at daddy's after Christmas.  I bought you an ornament too, Strenghth, Light, Life and bought myself one too: Mothers remain in their children's hearts forever....because I know that I'm truly still in your heart, as you are mine.

Okay, now I was feeling up again thinking about the eggs, and now I'm sniffling again.  I really do miss you so very much, have this home'sick type feeling at the moment.  But I refuse to let it get me down because I know that you are/would be smiling that we are doing a tree and ornaments in your honor.  I hope that we can buy you a small bench to go on your grave cover for Christmas.

Oh, to have you back!  And I will someday.

Night, son.

Hi Jacky, I hope you and all our angels have a nice Thanksgiving.  I bet all you boys have the best seat in the house today for watching some football.  We all give thanks today for the time we had with our loved angels, although to short.  Send your mom and family hugs and kisses today and some extra blessings.

Mom to Angel Chance

xoxoxo

Hey Jacky,

What's going on up there? I can only imagine. I wish you was here so we could debate and argure together about these presidential canidates... I know you would have your 2 cents as well. I wonder what your doing up there, If you are able to look down to check on us and if you're just waiting on us to come up to be with you too. I love you. I can just imagine you in this fall weather with that jean jacket. Or those white tee shirts and your GA hoodies over them. It's getting close to Thanksgiving.. YOUR favorite time ever, you would go to Susan's, Momma's then Jenny's. I sure wish you were around for Haven. It's getting close to Christmas, I would usually be looking for all kinds of GA stuff to get you, Wish you was still here cause I promise I would buy you that 300$ GA Lamp at the mall I txted you a pic of and you wanted so bad. Just remember I love you. WATCH OVER US, ESPECIALLY HAVEN TAYLOR AMOS~!

Jacky, I miss you so much.  Two days will be a year now.  Seven more minutes...it will be one day, a year now.

Jacky?  Can I be excused from writing THE day that is your heavenly anniversary day?  I know  your heart.  I know what you would say.

Seven minutes are up.

I had it written in my mind what I would write THE day, your anniversary...your b'day in heaven, whatever we want to call it...

But I can't.  I CAN'T!

I can't let you go.

And nor will I write it, that day.  Tomorrow...now.

My tears...they can't stop falling.

If I've battled anything more often this past two years...it's been tears.  I CANNOT stand TEARS.  You tried to help me with those little suckers the year before you died>>"Mama, you've gotta do what you've gotta do..."

But the tears still flowed.  Even your big perdy'boy smile couldn't stop the tears.  I guess...when your perdy'boy smile stopped>>>GOD, you were something! 

But when I lost your smile...I gained something.  YOU gained something.

Jacky...son?  I HAVE NEVER SEEN SO MANY folks saved/and or on the road to salvation...

Your death has touched many lives.  Not only my own<a child's death always has a true touch/impact  on someone close to them, blood'kin. 

But I KNOW that you are a proud warrior in heaven.  You have touched SO many stranger's lives.  (Yet not strangers?  God is sure to see to it?)  It's awesome, the folk's lives that you have touched just right here in the memorial sites....not to mention your own family, their lives, here on earth...

If it's okay with you, then it's okay with me>>>and I know that what is okay and agreed on with both of us...is OKAY<<so then....I'm not going to remember you as yesterday's news and tomorrow's future..   I choose to keep US living for today.

A special note to Tony:  PLEASE be here for Jacky.  (Or not, I can understand if you can't be.)  Please be here for me/us.  Whatever you have packed up>>open up.  Display it in your home.  Keep it for yourself...in memory of him.

Tony, son, you two were babies together

I just somehow need you...

And that's okay.  Jenny has a big heart.  She's willing to loan you out to me...

(Smile)