| jennybright |
| Jacky's mama |
Jacky, I think that TODAY has been the most trying day since your death. (Well, yesterday, really...as of now). I'm so tired, and shouldn't be, because you took such extra care to see that the end of your life would go smoothly for me to handle on a shock...shock...that it should actually be YOU...handling MY business, Not me handling yours. (You promised me so, with this motorcycle hatred that I had of you buying that silly death'machine. "Mama...don't worry....it's taken care of if an accident happens).
It always, ad always will stick to my memory, my mind, that that you were flirting with death when you bought that thing. I preached it, and you cracked that perdy boy grin every time that I did. (I think that you loved me worrying over you).
I mean...I can handle the crowds, and the food, the love...I can absorb it. I love it! But when I'm, taken from my simple kitchen to legalities, and pushes comes to shoves over small nothings....
That's when I feel the real pain. Your life was worth more than an "I'm (you're) taken care of" dollar...
Jacky!!! It hurt like the devil bringing you into the world! WHY did you buy that thing of a machine, knowing my constant fret of how quick it could take you back out? And somehow you had to know it. You prepared for it. God, that hurts much more worse than the labor pains of getting you here.... It hurts. I hurt.... I hurt...!
I hurt so much on a realize that you won't...ever really step into my daily routine again...when it eventually gets back to that.
Yes...you're buried fine, and you will get the best that mama can choose for your stone, but...that darned motor'cycle! I hated it from the beginning!!!!! HATED, HATED it! And to think that I might get stuck looking at it for a...couple of years...
Ohhh! Now I grieve! I don't want that thing near me!!!! God, keep it away! Somewhere! Not here!
But...on a flip'side of a coin...(Tony?) DON'T desert me. I need you, I need your voice. You sound so much like Jacky. So much.
And...I just...need you...
Janice
| Kiera Amos |
I love you Jacky with all of my heart. I miss you alot Jacky I love you because your sweet and nice . I will never forget that you where my cousin! I will always think about you alot.You was always so sweet to me, I will miss you playing with me .I think about you everyday I keep your necklace on all the time that way i know you are always with me. love you alot !Kiera
| Crystal Edwards |
This is a good pic of us ! I miss you soo much. It's not going to be the same with out you I lay down at night and I can hear your vioce You always some crazy story to tell that you new would make me mad.lol ! But if you didn't pick on me it wouldn't have being the same.I guess that how you & Tony shows yalls feelings . Words can't explain how I feel I know I don't show it but u know that just how i am ! Love u hope to see u soon.
| Angie Amos |
Ahh…. Jacky Jacky Jacky. I have been dreading writing this because I don’t want to cry or to think about what is real. I love you so much and If I would of known this was going to happen to you then I would of HUGGED and told you how important you are to me and how much you mean to my life EVERYDAY. You are the best brother that anyone could have. I know how hard you tried to do everything right and to be a good man, a role model for people. A man of God and not afraid to show it.I look up to you and thought no one in this world could hurt me because if they did then I would always have you there to protect me. You are always there for me when I need something. You are my rock and the only regret I have is that I never told you how much I need, love, and adore you. I tried to act as tough as you. I don’t understand how I am feeling and what I should be feeling. You know the feeling when you are trying not to cry or you have that sad empty feeling were you just want to breakdown but just keep it inside with your temples hurting, your throat tight and watery eyes just enough so a tear don’t fall? I have that feeling 24/7 and when my mind realizes where you are: In heaven VERY happy with God, I get peace because I know you are safe and ALIVE and living the way you always dreamed about. I know all you really wanted down here very much was a house. I can only imagine the house that God has given you in Heaven. But when I think how you died and how it happened and trying to think what you was thinking and feeling….It just sucks that I will not get to look at your face, hear your voice, smell you or to see you everyday at momma’s eating or on the computer or to listen to you make fun of me… I miss YOU Jacky. You was the only one that I ever wanted to make proud out of my family, I cared how you thought about me. You are the only one that was like a dad to Haven. Her male role model and a damn good one. I feel like it can’t be real and you are just on vacation. I hope you didn’t hurt and I hope that you knew how much people loved and appreciated you. You are a brother that I AM proud to have. I have been praying really hard that God delivers this empty, blank, saddened feeling from me and bless’s me with joy and happiness. Because Jacky I know you are sitting in Heaven with God having the time of your life, experiencing the unimaginable. I know YOU ARE happy. I pray that you are able to look down and see how much of an impact you was on everyone life and how you made a change. You didn’t leave just your mark down here on earth You was able to bring God into peoples lives and that MY brother is something to hold you head up high for. I will miss your famous AMOS phrases OOOKay and Quit Trippin Trippin. You are alive in spirit and will always be with me and in my heart. Watch over me and Haven and BE PROUD. Oakleaf will be packed Sunday because of you. I love you Jacky.
Everlasting Angie Amos