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Vivian | Family of Luis Avila | May 18, 2008 |
Hello Janice~ Thank you so much for all your words of spirit. They are always so uplifting for me. When I read your words, I feel a sense of freshness inside. I always enjoy reading the wisdom that GOD has instored in you. You are a true women of GOD. I appreciate having you as my friend and Sister in Christ.
How are things going with you? I hope you and your family are all standing strong!
I think I have finally found some counciling for me and my children. After begging and begging the school of my youngest girls, to no avail, they would promise to send my the information and I would never receive anything. I talked to the Middle School where my oldest daughter goes and the VERY next day I received a phone call with the information. There school counselor even emailed me a list of the information to my work. Me and my children have discussed counciling and they are all for it! They only problem I have faced is my girls are bi-lingual and they express alot of their feelings in Spanish. The 1 counciler that was most recommended is bi-lingual. So, I have an outlook now that maybe I can get my family back to normal!!
Again Janice~ Thank you for always being here for me. I have never met you but you mean so much to me. I love ya girl and thank you!!
Vivian
Shelli | Chance's Mom | May 17, 2008 |
Hello Janice,
Thank you so much for your comments on my son's memorial. Like you said, we, as mothers, only know how it feels and the depth of the pain and sorrow. My heart breaks for you to and your family. Jacky seemed like such a nice young man and was so loved and his pictures he is so handsome. I guess its true what they say, only the good die young. I still just don't even know what to do with myself. The pain is still soooo great. I feel like I am in a never ending nightmare and feel so much disbelief. I am sure you feel or have felt the same way. I spoke with my son only half hour before he passed, so when I got the call, I was in complete and utter disbelief. It was not supposed to be. But I HAVE to trust in God and know there was a reason. I just am not open enough yet to try and reason with that, but I will.
Its nice that we all have each other on this site. I remarried for the 1st time last July after being divorced for 23 years. My husband lost his 1st wife 8 years ago, but for some reason does not understand the depth of my grief so I feel no comfort from him since about 2 weeks after my sons death. I have a feeling it will end my marriage. My grief and my advocation for my son against people that agressively and recklessly drive is my drive right now and he does not understand that. He should be siding with me and helping but he doesn't he thinks I am to consumed with it all. Well I just let him know, get used to it, as i will be consumed with it every second for the rest of my life. I will have a life but I will advocate every chance I have.
I sincerely hope you have all the support that is needed in these times. I have my family and friends and of course my sons friends flocking around...they have been great.
If you would like to speak in regular email sometime, please feel free to email me at Sralls1@comcast.net or call sometime when you need 713-724-2993. I would enjoy talking to someone that has been and is going through the same thing.
May you have sweet dreams of Jacky and remember all the good times.
Shelli
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Vivian | Family of Luis Avila 5/11/08 | May 11, 2008 |
Hi Janice~ I hope you are having a pleasant, peaceful day. My day has been ok. Spent half the afternoon at the hospital with 2nd degree burns to my fingers, but I am okay. I was cooking for me and the kids(something I have not done much of since Luis died).
You are ever so right when you say that I have no adult support! All my "friends" took off when I needed them the most cause they were not TRUE friends to begin with. Imagine this, they are all starting to (for some strange reason) remember my phone number. When they call I tell them I do NOT know who they are. I have forgave them for deserting me, but I do not want them as my friends again. It is hard at times, more when I know that my own family is not here for me. Luis was my family with the kids, and I think that is why it is so hard to let him go. He was all I had and we shared everything with each other.
I know I have you, and I thank GOD everyday that he brought us together. Sometimes it takes me a while to write back, but I am here. I have been sleeping a little more than I should be here lately. I have my weeks of staying up too late unable to sleep that much and then I crash for days at a time. Only getting up to go to work and take the girls to do what they need to do.
I have been taking ONE DAY AT A TIME just like the song says. At church the Music Minister sings this song for me all the time. He sings it to me in Spanish the way Luis liked to hear it and I just close my eyes and I can see Luis standing beside me.
How is all going with you? The poems that Jacky wrote are beautiful. You had a very talented son and I know it feels good to know he knew GOD and you know where his soul is. Where the streets are made of gold and the rivers flow of milk and honey. NO more tears NO more sorrow No more pain nor sickness. One day we will join them Janice. I can't wait and I know you feel the same. All in Gods time my sister. Enjoy the rest of the your day and we will talk soon.
Vivian
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