Jacky Ralph Amos

This picture was taken probably about this time in1979 just about tme for you to arrive ,I can go down Douglas St. to the corner where this picture was taken and it seems like yesterday not almost 29 years ago the house is'nt there anymore but just like you the memory will always be with us .

This week last year brings a memory back of you ,I ask Wendy to see if you wanted to go with us to family get together for mama's oldest sister's birthday she turn 90 so we went to Ryan's in Dallas to eat ;they were so many people there i didn't know a lot of them but i introduced you to the one's I knew they all said how goodlooking you were and you were interested in the family and knowing who they were since you never met any of them .They must not be coming down from Texas this year but I need to send a birthday card to her,and on the way home you and Kiera was in the back seat and you kept aggravating her like you were her age and Ikept telling you i was going to stop this car and put Wendy back ther with you ,so finaly i pulled over and seperated yall,and it was a peaceful ride homeBut Iwish i could here you aggravate her againLOVE YOU,AND MISS YOU ALOT,WATCH OVER US

Tracy went to church and came home preachin' about parenting and what it's all about>>like that little preacher boy has ever raised a TEENager!  I'm gonna stick to your church, Jacky, at least until that little preacher boy's kids become TEENagers.  I might not go EVERY Sunday, but I'll sure go, and especially next Sunday, because I could just hear you telling Tracy that, "Mama will get to elbow YOU next Sunday, because the sermon is don't let your kids run your home."  I need time to come up with a quip like that, but you could do it instantly!

 

All of this in jest of course, (at least my end). 

 

It was a pretty day, Jacky, LOTS of motorcycles out.  I kept thinking that if you were here, you would have been on yours.  It wears me out praying over every one of those things that passes me....but I'll sure keep doing it.  Tracy wonders where my mind is half the time, but she don't realize that I'm PRAYING over killer machines and other stuff, altho I DID manage to do it today and at the same time LISTEN to her and be alert to her...chatter.  I answered questions too, like...yesss...once'upon'a'time I listened to Led Zepplin, and noooooo, it wouldn't kewl wearing plaids in my day.  She got two pair of plaid shorts and a shirt from Ross, so....I reckon she will go to bed a happy camper.  Until tomorrow.

 

I love my family, only feel productive when I'm doing for them.  Jenny, I love you and yours>>and Kiara<<you are a true Amos, tellin' them TALL tales.  Stretchin' fish, I call it!  But that's okay, Jesus stretched fish.  How did he do that?  Kiara, you tell ME>>go look it up.  Do you want me to buy you a Child's Bible Story bible?  I had one, and read it through and through from the time that I could read until I was wayyyy old enough to graduate from it.  (I wish that I had let you help me order for your school while you were here, but I forgot.)  I need to REMEMBER to do that tomorrow.

 

I love my Angie and Haven>>(Haven?  Are you still in one piece?  I HATE four'wheelers and two wheelers and such).  But of course you were in one piece since Angie called John wondering if there was any tuna salad left.  Out of luck...>>Larry, Tina, Gypsy and her better half polished it off.  I fore'warned Charlene and Troy (tonight) to eat else'where before coming over, and they did, coming anyway, all wore out from tornado'cleaning work.  Charlene wished to curl up in the crook of your couch and go to sleep. 

 

I love you all, my family!  I forgot to let Haven and Kiara send out your memory balloons, Jacky, but that's okay.  You're a forgiving person>>especially now that you are at the very knee of God. 

 

I LOVE you, Jacky!  Trust me, I could sense that you were in ALL of our hearts today.  Always on my mind, son....ALWAYS.

 

Bean'pot on in memory of you tomorrow....  I think that I'm going to switch it to Tuesdays, tho.  I recall the day that you died.  A Tuesday.  You had plans to go out and eat.  Soooo....I didn't cook much, but you just HAD to sample a biscuit, got choked on a tickle of something that Haven did or said>>>and I THANKED God for saving your life!

 

I thanked him all evening.  And then you were killed....  I will never understand it all, but nor will I let the devil set me back from my accomplishments, the desires of my heart that God has promised me>>because he put them there, GOD DID.

 

And the desires of my heart?  What are they????

 

My family.  My family WILL experience the ultimate experience of...God's annointing.  A true one on one relationship with the Almighty.  God!  I can't wait.  You are alive, you are here with us, amongst us...  We are ONE in YOU.

 

God, you are my best friend.  Most folks can't quite grasp that, have to use their imagination.  Jacky says that I go "Italian" when your annointing falls over me. (To pray for someone).

 

But Jacky understands.  His poetry says so.  Daniel understands...

 

Deal with Angie is that she take Haven and Tracy to church tomorrow.  Hannah Montanna is supposed to be there.  You all reckon?  

 

I have ribs in the oven for an all night steam (after a prayer over my dry rub), shrimp, and tuna salad for you after'church goers, so come on over.  I wanted it to be a full seafood meal along with grits and broiled salmon, but....gah'lay!  Eight bucks for a salmon steak that I could eat all by myself???  Must not be the season.  Good deal on ribs, tho.  I spent eight bucks on Jack Daniel's sauce that would knock yer socks off>>that stuff is nasty!  I'll have a hand at my own using my dry'rub seasonings.  I guess that dirty rice with a few frozen peas and organic carrot tossed in will replace the grits, and cole'slaw>>except minus Jacky's muscle, I'm not gratin' all of that cabbage by myself<<think I'll just sliver it instead.

 

I aimed to go to church myself, and still might...but can't be in two places at one time.  The house is upside down from John and Dooley Jenkins' constant remodel, and...I have my place in the kitchen>>>>especially since it's supposed to be like almost seventy degrees tomorrow!  I'm puttin' on mah capris!!!  Yayyy!

 

I live in my Bible, off my Bible....and>>>I've done raised my kids.  The up'coming thingie is for Angie, Crystal, Tracy....and the Hannah Montana lovers.  I DO wonder, tho, if it will really be her there, or someone wearing that Hannah Montana wig from Walmart for $9.99?  Or is it $19.99?

 

Anyway, Jacky, you would be excited to know that part of your family is learning, part serving, ALL praying, and ALL socializing>>in honor of you.  And you will get your balloon/s.  You will always be a beloved spirit amidst us.

 

I love you!

Tracy stays on the net browsing particular clothing, and especially shoes.  She's been hinting for this pair of psycho'dellic shoes for DAYs...finally hinting to me since John don't give in, cause he don't dare on a thought that I'm thinkin' that we're spoiling the girl.  She has now sat staring at this pair of shoes for over an hour, after staring at them for over an hour earlier....  How big can the HINT get?

 

Jacky, you would just shake your head and say that the girl has issues.  You had to say that at least once a week.  But, nah...she's just a teen'ager, and really...she's a pretty good one to be her age.

 

So...I reckon I'll tell John to order her the checked and stripe shorts, a tee'shirt, and the psyco'dellic shoes that have multiple colors.  The shoes sure won't match the shorts!

 

She don't know it yet.  I'm still ponderin' my sanity.  She will just think that John gave in...  >>Gotta stay tuff,  (me), you know?

 

Jacky, Jacky...how I've missed you today.  I've been plumb irritable about it>must be fairy time>>extremely sensitive.  I always stand outside the dog's door on a peer into the kitchen, trying to catch the image of you standing over the counter on an examine of the pots and pans set out buffet style.  And I can always clearly see you.  I want to always do that.  I've practically marked your spot and stance within my mind's eye...