Jacky Ralph Amos

I thought of you today while (me and Haven, SHE'S gotta be in the middle of it) were cooking.  I did a corn'beef roast atop green beans>which was good, the seasonings worked out well.  I did corn'chowder and thought of Jenny, but I didn't have bacon and used bacon'bits.  I don't like bacon bits.  I fried sweet potatos.  Yum!

We have too much food around here, without you, son.  That's okay, tho.  I'm having to heal Larry up again.  That man!!!  He has a pitiful immune system!

Last night I filled him with navy'bean soup with garlic and sage, corn'bread, and brussel sprouts.  I reckon he will be able to go into work tonight.

I don't know what I'll do tomorrow.  Probably nothing, since I've thawed nothing out.  I need to get out of the house anyway.  I've only been out twice in three'ish weeks.  That's perdy bad, ain't it?

Saves money, tho.

I miss passing on left'overs to you, after you almost polish off the food.  I miss our talks...

But a least I have my walks down memory lane with you each day.  I'm sure to keep your memory strong in young Haven's mind!  I fire her a lot!

I spent the day alone with you and God, for a change.  First, I lay in bed from about nine'ish to noon just simply praying to God and thinking of you, (repeatedly kissing a sleeping Haven and thanking Him for her),  almost hearing your after'church Sunday  knock at the door and your voice>>"Where's Mama?" floating down the hall.  After the family and Dooley Jenkin left to do their own things, I had a long bath and pondered and studied scripture...of what God promises to me  if I follow the "if's".  I do so try to follow the "if's" and they don't seem to be that hard at all.  Mainly, "IF my word abides in you..."

Matthew, Mark, Luke and John>>all of the letters in red seem to be such repeated words of promised comfort.  My Comforter is soo with me today, stayed especially with me because I chose to CHOOSE to spend that time alone with him, my comforter.  I chose to take some of the "alone" time to abide in him.  And he abided in me, and ohhh...so comforting!  What a great day this has been!

I love God!  And I know that you did too, and I praise him for that fact.  He would NOT have allowed the devil to steal you if your faith had been less than enough to get you onto the right side of the gulf in heaven.  Because his word did so abide in YOU.

Yes, I cry.  John wonders if I will ever stop crying...I say, dunno!  But as long as it feels good and isn't depressing or anything like that, then>>I figure it's okay. I cry because I miss you>>not because you're gone.

I love you, apple of my eye!  I do so miss the quiet moments that we spent together....

I had to take Haven to the ER today>>she fell off the bed and needed six staples.  Scared me to death seeing that blood mixed into her blonde hair!  But she is fine.  I sat staring at that room that we had to stay in while waiting for the investigator to talk to us.  Then a man came in tremendous pain.  He was holding his head and couldn't even stand, curled in a wheel'chair in fetal position holding his head once they managed to get him into one.  Seems a car that they were working on somehow backfired into his face or ear or something...and something about gas.  My heart went out to him and I prayed sooo hard for God to take his pain amidst thanking Him that Haven was okay and YOU didn't have to suffer with your own injuries.  I couldn't have stood it if you had suffered!

Seems I have to go to that hospital at least every couple of months for some reason or another.

I love you, and thank you, God, that Haven didn't break her neck or worse!  I plead the blood of Christ over my children constantly all day every day.  Even you, Jacky.  Altho you're in a new dimension, your soul is still mortal until Judgement Day.  But you were a good boy and loved the Lord, so I'm not worried about you.