Jacky Ralph Amos

The Bible says to eat, drink and be merry.  After all, life begins...and life ends. (Despite our age).   We are all vulnerable to what life might offer in this dimension.  There is a big "between" in our life of birth and death, a big middle where we will endure the bad and the good,  the sad and the mad, the happy and the down'right elated.  We will over'come some and feel to come short with others.  Especially with God, we will always feel to fall short, except....Jesus took care of true believers on that.

Eat, drink and be merrry, because>>>"nothing new under the sun" is going to happen to us, according to the Bible.  Nothing new that someone else hasn't  endured.   I've realized that for a long time now, years actually, that Satan tries to rob us  to create bad memories, but....it's up to US to create good memories.  The bad ones take care of themselves.

It's up to US to create good memories.  (I'm planning ALL of my good memories ahead of time>>God willing!)   Good food, Southern ice tea....eat, drink and be merry....I choose to be merry along with them>>my constant creations of good memories! 

....I can't wait for the "merry" part of our/my plans!  God willing!  Yuns pray that daddy hangs in there....

I love you, Tony.  You know what?  I asked God for discernment, and it seems that Jacky wants YOU to know that he is living life for REAL.   Really enjoying it.

Or maybe it's not Jacky wanting you to know, more'so than God.  After all, I did ask for discernment.

You two will never have to watch your backs in heaven....

You are on the road.  You are constantly in my prayers, as you bring my memories alive of me and your mama changing the both of yours and Jacky's  diapers...

...and the rattler and the rubber duckie that one or both of you stuck in the hole of the wall that one or both of you made....  My brother, Shane, found it, as he helped insert the in'wall fire'place.  What a coincidence???  What a keep'sake.  You children, are our keepsake!  You, Jacky....our children...ARE a keep'sake>>a joy to our memories...

Jenny and Roy'Lee>>I would like to cook a special meal for you two Friday evening...

If Saturday or Sunday would be best for you, please let me know ahead of time.  Your kids are welcome....>>>I can't wait!!!

Jacky, I love you!  Did you catch Haven's balloon today?  Sometimes I really wonder if you do catch those balloons, or if God lets you know about them, at least.  I think that He probably does.  My God is a fun God, has to be, if He says that laff'ter is the best medicine!

Okay, Jacky!  Why did you have to leave?  I sure need you back!  You know, I always really counted on you a lot to do stuff FOR FREE, and now....owie!  Daddy is back in the hospital, but God gave me favor>>at least it is HERE and not ATLANTA.  God and Daddy and everybody else knows that I refuse to drive the Atlanta area.  Even the Kennesaw part of the Atlanta area these days....  That was your job, Jacky, taking daddy to Atlanta. I sure hope that they don't send him there.

I sure hope that they don't send him HERE to ME either!  I would probably have his neck wrung quicker than he could die a natural death!  Okay, I'm kidding, but...have to be honest>>>pray for me that I don't have to take care of my daddy.  If I do, then...it is truly a test of God that I'm good for the job.  (You know, the honor thy parent part of the book?)  I promise, I'm good for the job, sa long as I don't have to go around lifting him or something, then....well...as he told his nurse, he is six'foot'three'barefoot....  He is a big ol' man, but kookier than big.  Remember, Jacky, when we took him to get his pace'maker?  He had us shushin' him and crackin' at the same time.  Same thing today.  It was the same thing today, except on morphine.  He had me crackin' inwardly and shudderin' outwardly at the things that he was saying as I inched myself and Tracy out of the room.  I let the nurse know up'front that she had herself a real character to deal with....

He's really a good man at heart.  He's just off the wall>>>and wonders why folks (kin) don't come around him!  Well, kin forgot how to tolerate him when they washed their hands of him MANY years ago, and...I don't much blame them after yesterday and today.  Lord'a mercy!  He can embarrass a spider out of the web!  Yall just pray for me, especially you, Jacky, there next to the Master, that I won't have to move him in.  I've been there and done that once.  It wouldn't a perdy picture.

(Are you laffin' with me, son?)  I sigh.

And John.  Since New Year's Day, his head has been feeling lighter than a feather, seeming to float higher than all of the balloons that we've sent up.  At first I thought that it was a b'p thingie, but now I wonder if it isn't a sugar thingie. He never did listen to me all of these years as I fussed over all of the sweets that he inhaled.  He will sure hit the doc's office Monday a.m.>>Watch my smoke!

Pray over John too.  I need him.  I think that I deserve a year of calm...but not my will be done, let it all be according to God's perfect will.

I am so proud of Angie...  Jacky?  Are you smiling with me?  Prayer does work wonders.  It might work them wonders ever'sa'seemingly slowly>>but Robin and Daniel are witnesses to my prayers that have NOTHING to do with your death.  She is slowly, but surely, becoming God's sun'shine to her family.

Love you, son.  Wish that you were here to crack with me over daddy.  Uhhh...and HELP me with him!

I listened to T.D. Jakes, one of mine and Jacky's favorite teachers.  In fact, you would most likely be here now listening with me, Jacky, if you were still in this dimension.  If I've said it once this past year, I've surely practiced it every single day, that no matter what, I will shoo away any and every negative thought, and replace it with a positive thought, because according to the word of God, for every negative, there is a positive.

The devil tried to steal that from me, Jacky, when he put that boy in your path.  But as you wrote, what the persecutor meant for bad, backfired, and turned out for the good.

Tonight, T.D. Jakes  preached that "The most powerful tool that we have in our lives is our mind.  Don't focus so much on having a new year; focus on having a new mind.  Change your mentality!"  (This is what I've been doing since nov. 2006, and thank God, because if I hadn't, I couldn't have handled your death, son.  That's what you had been doing too.  I thank God!)

"Give two children the same opportunity, and one will take it, and one will waste it."

Why?  Because of mind'sets, negatives and positives.  Wrong emotions cause wrong mindsets.    Jealousy, self'centeredness, greed, hate, spite, grudges....an eye for an eye was out'lawed by Christ, if we think about it.   We are the result of our thoughts...  All of that needs to be replaced by postives such as forgiveness in an instant, love, peace, contentment where we are and the situations that we are in...

We need to get rid of negative mentality and focus on positive mentality.  After all, as T.D. Jakes said, "How many people are laid up in the hospital, mourning, down'trodden, down on their so called luck, begging God for the same opportunities that we have and are taking for granted."

Actually, pondering that, there is no such thing as luck.  It's blessing.  Our lives reflect our seed, thoughts and prayers....It's not all about "us" anymore, it's all about those around us.  It's all about love.  We can plant a garden of bitterness with our emotions, and never feel the zeal of life, never taste the zest.  Or we can plant a garden of love and giving, and reap the true peace of Christ, a life of peace and togetherness.  A life of joy despite the circumstances.  I personally chose long ago to choose a life of peace>>>I refuse to be around back'biters, gossipers and back'stabbers because I don't want them to bring me back down to the level that they are.  But I can love them from a distance, because I can forgive them in my heart, because>>>>I've been there and done that myself.  Meaning....I can't judge them.

Know what, Jacky?  Normally I would be sitting here discussing this stuff with you, rather than writing it in memory of you.  I love your Amanda for this site.  It keeps you so close.  I feel like I can still talk to you, discuss my thoughts, prayers and ponderings with you.  I do miss your in'put, though, but that's okay.  You usually agreed.